Lately

I've been such a party pooper and raining on everyone's parade. *sigh. I suck

I'm too

scared to dream now. Too scared to sleep. Too scared to close my eyes.

Gleek

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This morning

has been bombarding me with music. Lyrics are coming out, the keyboard is singing. Locking myself in my room and just letting the music consume me.

Nightmares

It scared me so much. I never want to experience that again.

My day

started off crap. Hated the morning. I was super tired and kept yawning for half the day. By lunch it was getting better. By the end of school it was alright but I had a massive headache. After school I was completely happy. At home I was simply content. It was a down to up day.

Recorded it

It's hopeless. No point. Yet I keep on doing it. And failing. Epically. My voice sounds like crap when recorded. Crap multiplied by a million plus one. Ew. Damn.

Hometown Glory - Adele

From my hometown, memories are fresh
From my hometown, oh the people I've met
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of mine.

Beauty and the Geek

makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes just watching the beauty's talk about things they don't know about. When I watch uncomfortable scenes on TV or a movie I tend to try and hide and not watch them humiliate themselves or get humiliated. It's hard for me to see someone being laughed at when you know they're a beautiful person who doesn't deserve it. Confrontations and humiliation is just not my thing.

I just

feel so tired. On so many levels.

Don't Stop Believing

I've decided to do the finale dance for speech night. At first we thought we were going to dance to I Gotta Feeling by BEP but now we're doing Don't Stop Believing from Glee. Totally excited. Auditions for singers on Monday. I don't know whether I should try out or not. For one thing I don't think I'll make it. For another I really like dancing. Anyways I'm just hyped up about the song itself.

Glee's on tonight. I think my whole week leads up and looks forward to watching it most now. Which is quite sad. But yesh, I heart being Gleek xD

I'm getting back into sketching again

Rawr

Means I love you in dino language. But my stomach is making weird rawr noises and I'm not loving it. It's not painful (well rare moments it does), it's like....weird. Its like rumbling and stuff. I'm not hungry, I don't need to go to the bathroom. It worries me....not really...just a tiny bit. It's just there...

You've got me

frustrated, writing songs, craving oreos, getting distracted, going insane, confused, listening to music, smiling, crying, wondering, worried, anxious, happy, missing you.

Slowly

I'm getting less and less scared of you. Now I feel I can finally have a little more confidence in myself and stand up for myself. I just have much much more to go. I'm glad to see myself changing for the better finally.