Slap On The Wrist

• I really shouldn't start the month off with negative posts for example the previous two.
  
• I really shouldn't express my feelings and talk about them to people cause it cause ripples in the water that can end up in massive disasters.
  
• I really shouldn't blog about this kind of crap where I know certain people can or will read this
  

but the selfish part of me that wants them to know does blog it up into the world where only not even 3 people read this random outlet of mixed feelings.


God I hate myself...and right now I sound like a whiny, emo, depressed teenager when in fact I'm just being a teenager going through the self-hate/ discovery phase which is seriously pissing me off.


Lets forget I ever wrote this ok?


I keep on playing scenarios in my head when people will say "well if she doesn't want people to know, then the insensitive, whiny little bitch wouldn't post it up on the freaking internet for everyone in the world to see." I agree but this is the only way I know how to say these kinds of things without confronting anything or anyone. I'm a nine, I avoid conflict.


Now I shall save this in drafts.