Sunday, 19 August 2012



"I haven't really decided to be an actor yet. I started doing plays when I was about 15 or 16. I only did it because my dad saw a bunch of pretty girls in a restaurant and he asked them were they came from and they said drama group. He said: Son, tha tis where you need to go."

--Robert Pattinson

Say what you want and think what you want about the man but I admire him as a person. In fact, this was going to be an appreciation post on him because so many people judge him solely on his personal life and Twilight. Now it's going to defend the cast of Twilight.

Let me say first of all that I hate the films. They were poorly made and directed. The novels, after much consideration and reading Mark's commentary, it's a horrible message for young teenage girls. At first I fell into that thought that what Edward and Bella were doing was the most romantic and healthy relationship. It's the opposite.

Movie's wise. The films are a joke. Lets face it. Horrible dialogue, costume design and direction. Cinematography sometimes good. The thing is, when Twilight first started, it was excitin. It was the biggest literary turn novel phenomenon since Harry Potter. And look how Harry Potter turned out. But then the movie came out. Everyone turned from hot to cold so fast on the franchise, I wouldn't have known that people loved it if not for the Twihards.

I think the blame lies with the director and the story. I don't blame the actors. It was going to be the next big thing, a massive project. And if I was an actor at that time, I would have wanted to be part of it really badly. When you're done with a massive project that had a lot of hard work in it, you're proud of it. Even if it sort of sucks. And since it's a franchise I admire the actors for sticking with it, even with all the criticisms about it and how they seem to be the butt of all the jokes on the internet.

If you look at the actor's filmography/repertoires, most show great acting ability in other films. Robert Pattinson in Water for Elephants, Remember Me and Cosmopolis was praised in his performance even if the films themselves weren't highly acclaimed. Kristen Stewart's one dimensional role as a needy completely non depth character doesn't really give her much to work with. I haven't seen her other films but when I am going to, I'm sure she'll display a plethora of emotions. Maybe not a plethora...

You have to admit, their willingness to stick with the weirdest love hated franchise despite having the options to leave, it's pretty admirable.

All I have to say is, crap franchise but good people who got stuck with it, pigeon holed with it and are doing their goddamn best.

I don't feel like posting this anymore but I spent some time on it so what they hey. Not like anyone reads this.

Thursday, 16 August 2012

Can I just please drop out of school? Or at least have English and SOR as optional subjects? Or have creative writing as a separate course? Or just eliminate the state of mind thinking that our worth should be measured in numbers. That we have to do this ridiculous things called the HSC to do some sort of audition, fire hoop jumping to get into university?

HSC should die in a fire. Or at least Studies of Religion and English Advanced.

Saturday, 11 August 2012

Everything is pointless. So utterly and fucking pointless.

Thursday, 9 August 2012

A Finger, Two Dots Then Me


Will never not love

Tuesday, 24 July 2012

I give up

Friday, 20 July 2012

The Neighbourhood - Sweater Weather


"Sometimes the silence guides your mind
So move to a place so far away

So let me hold both your hands in the holes of my sweater"

Favourite song at the moment

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Man On Fire [Official Video]


God, I love music.

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Wishlist of things I cannot buy because

a) I have no money
b) I don't have a credit card to but stuff online (which is probably good because I 'd go crazy with that)


  • Bee Toy Digital 8mm Camera: Instead of film, you just need a handy Micro SD card and you are ready to make some home movies! This Camera redefines cute, and produces dreamy old time movies that you can edit with ease on any computer. It's Mac and PC compatible, just pop out the SD card and download on your Computer, iPad or any device you like. 
    • Imaging Method AVI Motion JPEG still picture
    • Still Image Resolution 1280 × 960
    • Video Resolution : 640x480 30fps with Audio
    • Chip : 1.3 Million Pixel CMOS
    • Lens : f2.8
    • ISO : 100
    • Battery : Built in Lithium Ion rechargeable thru and USB port
    • Recording Media : Micro SD up to 16gb
    • Shooting time : up to 100 minutes
    • Mac and PC!
    • http://www.fourcornerstore.com/collections/new/products/bee-toy-digital-8mm-camera
    • $70
  • Bottle Cap Tripod: Ever need that steadiness of a tripod, but all you have is your water bottle? Fret no more, because we've got the bottle cap tripod! Simply screw on your favorite camera (up to a pound...) and then snap this right on your bottle top. Even has tilting motion! Comes packaged in a collectible Four Corner Store canvas bag too!
  • Revolog Custom 35mm Film: A FourCornerStore.com exclusive! Hand-Made 35mm films that produce incredible effects. Nine different films that are each tweaked with a secret process that is never the same twice. All rolls are 12 exposure, and can be processed at any hour lab (C-41). Double expose, cross process, over or under expose... the possibilities are endless with this amazing new product! All effects shown are built into the film, and your images will look just like these!
  • Minimo-X Digital Camera: Already a sensation in the Asian market, the Minimo-X is available for the first time in the US exclusively at Four Corner Store. This tiny camera packs a ton of features, and creates some amazingly saturated images with that Four Corners Dark look. Shooting both Video and stills, the 3.2 mpx chip shoots right onto a Micro SD card of up to 8gb. If you loved the Harinezumi, you will will go crazy over the Minimo-X. 
  • Final Cut Pro (NOT FINAL CUT PRO X): Completely redesigned from the ground up, Final Cut Pro adds extraordinary speed, quality, and flexibility to every part of the post-production workflow.
    • $319.99
    • http://itunes.apple.com/au/app/final-cut-pro/id424389933?mt=12
  • Sailor Moon Manga: Self-explanitory. C'mon guys, it's me. And Sailor Moon

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

I wonder if people realise they were noticed today. If people knew how many times a day they were noticed, would they feel less lonely? Whether it be a few people on a passing bus, a daydreamer looking outside a cafe window, a bored child watching the world outside their house. We all notice people, strangers, everyday. Something about them caught our eye. And for those couple of seconds, we wondered. What are they doing? Who are they? What kind of life do they have? It's all so fleeting. But the thoughts exist nonetheless. If people realised they were noticed today and they knew this, would the world be a better place?

Monday, 25 June 2012

It's just one of those days

Just feels like the whole day was devoted to try and break me down. For me to collapse in tears from stress and pressure and being misunderstood. But I haven't. I've teared up and a few have escaped. But I'm not done. I'm not going to give certain people the satisfaction of making me smaller than what I am. I understand things. More than people realise. 

I wonder if people understand their perception of me is not how the world sees me or how I see myself. I wonder if people understand this when it comes to themselves. 

I don't even know what's stopping me from breaking anymore. 

Thursday, 14 June 2012

ANOTHER NEW BLOG?


Technically a blog-to-be. I don't want to seem like one of those people who creates a new blog every single year for no reason. If I make multiple blogs, they have different purposes and reasons. This one right now is of course my personal, random blog which I have sorrowfully neglected...sort of like a my 10 year PlayStation which I continuously played for a couple of months, tops, before it became an antique in my fish cupboard.

A couple of weeks ago, while actively procrastinating, I wrote down a list/table of televisions shows that I am:
  • Up to date with and on hiatus or completed
  • Series I have started but have not yet finished
  • Series I need to start to watch from the very beginning
Probably the most productive work I've ever done in english....Anyways, this list epic and has me excited. I'll post it up later. I also need to draw up a novel version of what I just did. I've just accumulated all these things that need to be experienced.


New blog is inspired by this gem of a man: http://markwatches.net/reviews/

He watches a whole television series systematically in a brilliantly laid out schedule and reviews each episode right after he watches it. Right now he's onto Buffy and I am so terrified and excited for him because I know what is to come and I can see he's just as emotionally invested in it as I am. I pray for you, man. He's got another site which is purely just for novels. So instead of reviewing episode at a time, he does it in chapters. Good God, this man is hilarious.

So I shall set this thing up after the 8th of November. Which is my last exam by the way. The last exam day for the whole of HSC. The last high school exam I would ever take in my life. Will show HSC exam schedule later. When I'm not weeping tears of despair. 

I'm wondering if I should do the same thing he's done, which is two separate sites for novels and televisions shows (also thinking of a movie one....)

Friday, 1 June 2012

Update

So I haven't really blogged in a while. I wish I could say it was because I've been busy....well I sort of have been, but it's mainly cause I'm lazy or don't have much to say.

The major events that have happened that I remember:

  • Hunger Games Movie
  • Battleship Movie
  • Avengers Movie
  • Laura's 18th and her party
  • Exams, assignments and school
  • NKOTBSB concert
  • Careers Expo
  • We can get a dog if we get rid of the rabbits
I can tell you there's probably not much more. My life isn't that exciting. The movie's were amazing. Especially Avengers. Laura's birthday was great. NKOTBSB was incredible. Careers Expo was...interesting. I just don't know anymore. 

Wednesday, 28 March 2012

Weep

So one of my all time favourite songs is We Don't Eat by James Vincent McMorrow. Found it in Year 11 or 10 and just loved the song ever since. I decided to download all of McMorrow's songs on the weekend because he has the kind of voice I want to marry and be with forever.

Today after my exam, I had a singing lesson but I had to wait 1 and half hours. So me and my friends went to the cafe near my school for some lunch. This cafe has those kinds of stands that have random postcards and notices. When we were about to leave, I saw this postcard:

So of course I took one. Got home and realised. HE IS COMING TO SYDNEY. But then I'm like "Oh it's probably going to be a school night or really expensive" So I checked the date. IT'S ON THE FIRST MONDAY IN THE HOLIDAYS. Checked the website. 44$ FOR A TICKET WITH HIS NEW ALBUM INCLUDED. I was excited. I was happy. I was going out of my mind. It was originally sold out but due to high demand, they moved to a bigger venue and more tickets were available. This was fate. I was meant to go and listen to this man live.



And then:

I noticed this one detail:

I'M GOING TO BE 18 THIS YEAR. I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GO. THIS IS BULL. NO.

So long story short. My heart is broken

Music

So for my comp, I went over to Steph's with Matt. She has a mini recording studio in her garage. As soon as me and Matt walked in, we were like....

No words. lol. It was tiny but it was perfect. It had instruments, computer, mixing board, one of the coolest couches ever. And the sound proof recording booth. That is like, my dream thing to have. I mentioned I needed a drum beat and she said she could try get her drum pad. Me and Matt just lost our shit at that moment.

So my composition. Needs a lot of work. But since the planning out is going good and my boyfriend just happens to be the best thing that has ever happened to me, his improv is making my song sound legit. 'Cause he's magical. So he's basically writing it for me but I'm giving him the direction so technically I'm still the composer? Producer? Director? I don't know..