Even Before the Last Blog

So it was Thursday night and Luke asked me to go to a music thingy with him. I thought he was talking about some random thing his school was performing so I asked my parents while leaving out a few details and they said yes. I didn't know that we were going to the Opera House to watch a magnificent orchestra and massive choir perform. Apparently this thing happens 4 times a year, once every term.

So I went and it was great. His music friends (and apparently more then half his school) are really.....deprived and so they check out and talk about and hot chicks they see. It was hilarious.

The music was....incredible to watch.

P.s. the harp is awesome

Pupil Free Day @ Eph-Stay's

I didn't even know it was pupil free day until the beginning of the week. The girls planned to use Miji's pro camera and all go to eph-stay's place and take picutres in pretty dresses for the fun of it.

So it was me, miji, mario, kwistophe, gg, miller and eph-stay. We all met at her place and dressed up, did our hair and make up and headed to the park with a black and rainbow umbrella.

It was FREEZING. So much wind and almost chances of rain. Thankfully it rained all down while we were getting ready. Still cold though. I reckon the photos look really good.

By the time we finished photoshooting, we couldnt be bothered walking back to eph-stay's place from the park. So we called her mum and she drove us back. We got back into our normal clothes and went to easties to buy lunch and ingrediants to make brownies. I also snuck in the suggestion of tim tams for tim tam slamming. xD

Got back a bit late so we were running around the house trying to pack up our clothes and stuff and make brownies. We were rushing cause some of the girls had to go back to the school for debating and show rehearsals. So some of the girls left early and so me, kwistophe and eph-stay stayed back and made the brownies. While we were waiting the girls tried to kill me with kitchen knives. Scary crap right there ppl.

We finally finished the brownies and because luke wanted to see me in a dress for no sane reason (he was wearing "formal" too) I went in a dress...in the cold. We bought easyway. So as soon as he saw me for a minute or two in the dress i ran to the bathroom and changed into my normal clothes again.

After rehersals, luke's dad drove me and him home.

"I blow bubbles when I'm sad. Because when at times I feel like there's no point in me breathing then I give my breath a purpose; to make people happy"

Stuff and Nonsense - Missy Higgins

Disobey my own decisions
I deserve all your suspicions
First it's yes and then it's no
I dilly-dally to you, oh
But I've got no secrets that I battle in my sleep
I won't make promises to you that I won't keep

And you know that I love you
Here and now until forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense

I once lived for the future
Everyday was one day closer
Greener on the other side
Yes I believe before I met you
But I soon learned that you were hidden in a disguise
Now I how and when
I know where and why

And you know that I love you
Here and now until forever
I can give you the present
I don't know about the future
That's all stuff and nonsense

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stare out my window

Dreaming of a could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
I gotta make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta make a wish, take a chance, make change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forgot of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Breakaway
Breakaway.

Ever had the thought that their life would be better if you didn't exist?

Things I Aim To Do

• Get good on NAPLAN
• Learn to cook
• Be more organized (for real this time)
• Be nicer =P
• Be exceptionally good so that parents shall let me out whenever I ask
• Save money
• Write and draw every chance I get

Easter Show(s)

Well the first I went with Ray, Win, Cuz, Em, Wheel, Harry and Feelia. It was pouring. We got soaked. it was so fun. Every ride we went on only got us even more wet. The first ride we went on was the Mega Drop, I was half crying in the line. I went up and dropped 45 meters. I couldn't even scream or open my eyes, except at the top, it was a great view. We came home around 8ish and ordered pizza.

Second time I went with eph-stay, Lucas and pretty much everyone else. It wasn't raining but it was windy. We didnt go on as many rides but we still had fun. We went to the little games stores, dared each other to pet cows, go on the pirate revenge (best ride ever).

By 5 or 6 eph-stay had to leave so me and her ran through the giant waterfall fountain thing and got every inch of ourselves soaked. As soon as we got out it started pouring down rain so we ran for the bus stop. As soon as eph-stay left we went to have hurricane in the city. We were soooooooooooo cold and tired by the time we were on the train back to central. So were really tired of walkng too so we trekked to Hurricane and it tasted SO good at the end of the day.

Luke has a half rack of ribs by himself, me and the girls shared a half rack between us and got hungry again. So we went downstairs and bought ice cream (reeeeeeeeeeally good ice cream, i recommend the strawberry) and then took photos on the harbour. Then we went our serperate ways and went home. Luke and his 'rents took me and Abz home. Good day =D

Filler Blog

Well yet again, no post for ages. I've noticed the only blogs that have been updated recently and consistantly are the food blogs and ones where the people are overseas.

My Easter Holidays: Sleeping in, movies, fanfiction, Fast & Furious 4, 17 Again, Dragonball Z, haircut and of course the Easter Show. (Will blog bout it later)

Now: Back to school wearing our dusted off carpets and stockings, what the school likes to call the winter uniform. Sport is ten pin bowling which is awesome. And already straight away bitch smacked in the face with exams, assignments and wait for it.....NAPLAN.

Life's been pretty settled and as frustrating as usual. The ordinary pissed off outburst everyday, talking to each other only when we want a favour or something done, wasting our lives in front of the computer...the usual.

*clench, unclench, clench, unclench*

-breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out-

scream

Slap On The Wrist

• I really shouldn't start the month off with negative posts for example the previous two.
  
• I really shouldn't express my feelings and talk about them to people cause it cause ripples in the water that can end up in massive disasters.
  
• I really shouldn't blog about this kind of crap where I know certain people can or will read this
  

but the selfish part of me that wants them to know does blog it up into the world where only not even 3 people read this random outlet of mixed feelings.


God I hate myself...and right now I sound like a whiny, emo, depressed teenager when in fact I'm just being a teenager going through the self-hate/ discovery phase which is seriously pissing me off.


Lets forget I ever wrote this ok?


I keep on playing scenarios in my head when people will say "well if she doesn't want people to know, then the insensitive, whiny little bitch wouldn't post it up on the freaking internet for everyone in the world to see." I agree but this is the only way I know how to say these kinds of things without confronting anything or anyone. I'm a nine, I avoid conflict.


Now I shall save this in drafts.

Have you ever done something really small but hate yourself for it no matter how stupid it is?? 

I do it all the time.

Random Blog

I dont know....... I've been feeling really weird lately, more bad then good. Like it's a feeling in my heart that doesnt give me trouble breathing it just makes me breathe in a bit more and it feels more weird when I breathe.

I think it might just be me worrying about stuff like school, family and mainly friends. Like they've just got so much going on and I tend to get....I dnt knowwwwwww......I just act a certain way when bad things happen to good people.

Meh well...nyahhhhhh

Moulin Rouge!

Possibly best musical movie ever! I heart everything in this movie, EVERYTHING. Plot is great, acting is awesome and the music and magical!

And so I have chosen this for my canvas art project...which is due on Thursday...I need spray paint, CRAP. Gotsa go do work now.

Procrastination

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. DUDE. I CANNOT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE. Ok in a science assignment, we have to pretend we're a 30 year old woman who is considering IVF. We write all the information as if it's a diary entry. In the diary entries I have to use formal language describing reproductiveness and IVF information.

A) Who the hell write formally in there dairy
B)Where the hell is the information on this so called "internet"
C) It's due tomorrow, I started it today.

P.s. im blogging from mttie's lappie while he's doing his math and quietly scolding me for procrastinating =D.