Lately

I've been such a party pooper and raining on everyone's parade. *sigh. I suck

I'm too

scared to dream now. Too scared to sleep. Too scared to close my eyes.

Gleek

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This morning

has been bombarding me with music. Lyrics are coming out, the keyboard is singing. Locking myself in my room and just letting the music consume me.

Nightmares

It scared me so much. I never want to experience that again.

My day

started off crap. Hated the morning. I was super tired and kept yawning for half the day. By lunch it was getting better. By the end of school it was alright but I had a massive headache. After school I was completely happy. At home I was simply content. It was a down to up day.

Recorded it

It's hopeless. No point. Yet I keep on doing it. And failing. Epically. My voice sounds like crap when recorded. Crap multiplied by a million plus one. Ew. Damn.

Hometown Glory - Adele

From my hometown, memories are fresh
From my hometown, oh the people I've met
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world
Are the wonders of mine.

Beauty and the Geek

makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes just watching the beauty's talk about things they don't know about. When I watch uncomfortable scenes on TV or a movie I tend to try and hide and not watch them humiliate themselves or get humiliated. It's hard for me to see someone being laughed at when you know they're a beautiful person who doesn't deserve it. Confrontations and humiliation is just not my thing.

I just

feel so tired. On so many levels.

Don't Stop Believing

I've decided to do the finale dance for speech night. At first we thought we were going to dance to I Gotta Feeling by BEP but now we're doing Don't Stop Believing from Glee. Totally excited. Auditions for singers on Monday. I don't know whether I should try out or not. For one thing I don't think I'll make it. For another I really like dancing. Anyways I'm just hyped up about the song itself.

Glee's on tonight. I think my whole week leads up and looks forward to watching it most now. Which is quite sad. But yesh, I heart being Gleek xD

I'm getting back into sketching again

Rawr

Means I love you in dino language. But my stomach is making weird rawr noises and I'm not loving it. It's not painful (well rare moments it does), it's like....weird. Its like rumbling and stuff. I'm not hungry, I don't need to go to the bathroom. It worries me....not really...just a tiny bit. It's just there...

You've got me

frustrated, writing songs, craving oreos, getting distracted, going insane, confused, listening to music, smiling, crying, wondering, worried, anxious, happy, missing you.

Slowly

I'm getting less and less scared of you. Now I feel I can finally have a little more confidence in myself and stand up for myself. I just have much much more to go. I'm glad to see myself changing for the better finally.

I like your hair. Who does your hair? I wanna go there.

My hair is finally growing. it's nearly as long as it used to be now. It's been a while since it has been. Have i changed that much physically since primary school? Probably not xP

jane.bird on flickr

"forever, i will love you, because love doesn't die... sometimes it just changes. and real love is unconditional... even when the conditions of our relationship have changed.
i still pray for you.
i still pray for those things about your heart that only i knew."

This girl is amazing. Inside and out. Go check her stream on Flickr. Absolutely inspiring.

I think

we need to talk. I miss you so much. I need to see you. I want to be with you. It scares me how much I do.

One Man Drinking Games - Mayday Parade

And you said it would be funny to keep me hanging in suspense
Then I'd run over to your house and I'd scale the chainlink fence
That borders your back yard and then I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I love you as you fall out of your clothes
And we'd lay there in the darkness like the dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies and knew what time we had
Could be counted on your fingertips, that almost made you cry
You let me hold you tightly as we said all our goodbyes ohhh

May I say I loved you more?
May I say I loved you more?

I love this song and Mayday Parade too

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Last Night

I had a dream. It was awesome.

My Good Deed

Yesterday as I was walking to the restaurant I saw an old lady banging on her door. I asked what was wrong and she locked herself out of her home. I stayed with her for a few minutes trying to figure out what to do. I offered my phone and she called someone with the spare key. I got so worried that person wouldn't be able to come. It all turned out alright though. It made me feel good afterwards that I contributed to society in a way. =P

The Storm

was amazing

Holy Geez Man`

If it weren't for the ecosystem, I'd destroy all insects.

MSN

is majorly pissing me off.

It's something unpredicatable but in the end it's right. I hope you have the time of your life

“We only have one life to live, might as well chasing something that has meaning to me.”

-Phillip Wang

Happy Birthday

Christie, Mary and Dad.

Listen

It's you and only you. I had no idea. I'm new to all this. I'm sorry. I'm stupid. I've never hated myself more. If you says it's my fault then you're probably right. I can't even trust myself now. I should shut up. I'll shut up. I'll never ever do or say anything again. I've lost that right. I lost it a long time ago.

Freaking hell

gotten more then 200 emails about one photo being commented within 1 hour on facebook

You

got me writing songs

You're my beautiful walking contradiction

MashUp

Glee is awesome. I need some vitamin D...

I need you now.

Mid-step

Walking up from PE and on the stairs of the A-block when my right leg muscle seized up and started spasm-ing. Couldn't move my leg or my body or else it was would hurt even more. I was just standing there for a minute or two before I could slowly move myself down to sit on the stairs. Couldn't walk for another few minutes. After rubbing the area for a little while, the muscle loosened enough for me to walk without too much pain.Then for the rest of the school day I was limping a little.

Didn't want you guys to see me like that. I'm thinking it's genetic; grandma has a really bad case of it, Mich got it once and this wasn't the first time it happened to me. Thankfully this only lasted a couple of minutes.

Today

was the first time in ages I accidentally fell asleep on the couch, watching television. It was wonderful =P

It's weird..

..how things turn out. How quickly some things can fall apart. How thing gradually come back together. How we feel while that happens. How we learn so many things during the process. I have to figure out what I need and what I want. Right now, all I need is his understanding and acceptance and I think then life could be perfect. Story of my life.

Don't Worry

Cause in the end, it'll all turn out fine.

If you're reading

pls comment and/or follow....wow...cause that didn't sound desperate. I just wanna know who reads this.

Who?

It's not you, it's not them, it's definately not him. It's just me; always just me.

Yesterday

I watched G-Force with Luke and L. It was alright. Cute. I miss Porkchop....lol then while we were waiting for the other people to finish watching Up, me and the guys were just standing on the balcony. Then I look up and see Michelle staring straight at me from opposite the balcony. I start to panic

She tells me to come over so I do. She tells me that we are having lasagna and garlic bread tonight and that I should run before dad comes back. Wow, she showed that she had niceness in her. Then we met up with two other people and we just walked around to nearly every department store to find the perfect type of exercise book for Luke. Then I got ice cream, we sat down for an hour doing nothing and trying to decide what to do.

Around 4, me and Luke went to catch the bus back to mine and visited Bob. Then he had to go. I spent the rest of my day trying to finish my art, which I stuffed up and had to redo. School was today. Better then I expected. =P

Hrmmm..

Should I have a Scrubs, One Tree Hill or Greys Anatomy marathon while I do my last minute math holiday homework???

A Little Respect - Erasure

I keep hearing this song everywhere! I finally found it. Quite fun xP.

Ummm

Damnit Bob..

Upside Down

Watched Up today with Luke. And I'm listening to the song Down. This amuses me. Yes...I am lame. The movie was really good. Cute. *heart*

I'm Only Me When I'm With You - Taylor Swift

<33

P.S. I Love You

Getting ready to watch it and from what I've heard so far about it, getting ready to cry my heart out.

Fail...

Haven't seen ONE of the movies so far in my holiday list. Fail.

Crapp..

Georgie I think I accidentally left my Paramore CD in your thingymabob....

7 buses, 1 car, 1 taxi

Travel Info
392 - To Steph's, missed a stop so I had to walk more then I should've. Felt so unfit. Grawr

Car - Steph's mum drove me, steph and georgie to coogee where me met up with migi and took photos for Wylies competition. Twas fun

370 - To kingsford. After photos, Migi had to go so me, steph and georgie wanted to go Bondi to eat

400 - Got a chicken burrito from Bondi Junction. Didn't know it was mildly chilli...walked around to Greater Union in hopes of "bumping into" Anthony

400 - Kingsford. Everyone had to go home and work and stuff

391 - Matraville. I JUST got to this bus. Went home

309 - Mascot. Wanted to go to Luke's, hang and bum around for a while.

303 - Kyeemagh. Went to Lukes, debating over 15 minutes on what to do; go to Migi's, beach or a random park. Ended up in his backyard...he kept headbutting and poking me...strange boy xP nah nah jks, heart =D

Taxi - Home. Cause the next bus was at 6 and I would have been slaughtered by my parents if I got home too late

Sh-sh-shake it like a polaroid picture

For Wylies

Let's

go on an adventure to no where. Come on a road trip with me.

Presents

I love them so much. Thank youu! <33

Secret #28

One of my favourite songs to sing at the moment is Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen.

Youtube...again

Different guy. Love this song! Down - Jay Sean. THis version is better though. All I need now are his piano chords and sheets....enjoy!

Secret #27

I love pretending to sing in the dark

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Life Happens - AJ Rafael

I think the world needs
Peace, love, clarity and serenity
Sorry my bad I've been listening to Fergie
Too much time is on our hands
So lets do what we can
To make the most of this
And we can conquer anything
Don't you worry about it

Cuz during the rough times
The war and the scandals and the bad rhymes
We'll make it together with a big smile
And maybe it'll work out this time around

Because life happens and it happens fast
It goes by so quick I dont know how long I'll last
Life happens and it so happens
That life's not fair
And with the delays and the roadways
We never think that it'll work out
But I know you and I know me
We're tough and we know whasup
Because life just happens

I think that you need
Peace, love, clarity, friends and family
They will help you through
All the problems that you're having
And know that you know that you gotta take a chance
At what you got and dont you
Stand around just waiting
Gotta ignore all the hating

We gotta reflect on
The future and whats holding us together
The ties that we make will last forever
And if we hold on then we can make it strong

Don't be discouraged by the storm
It hits me sometimes but I got to move on
I know you're worried bout what's wrong
But it in this lifetime all you need is love...

I'll see you in my dreams

I'll sleep better tonight knowing, you're coming home.

Life feels weird at the moment. I feel like something big or a massive change is about to happen. Hopefully it's something good. I'm content at the moment; everything seems fine. I'm feeling like I'm looking for something nowadays too.

One day..

I long to have a house with a soundproof room in it so I can belt out anything without neighbours or roomates hearing. I also wish that one day I will have the courage to sing out loud as I do at home in front of my friends.

A little get to know me thingy

Well yeah it's 2 in the morning, I'm youtubing and not tired at all. So Yeah just a little thingymabob about some things that I know about myself. No personal details like home address or phone number or anything like that in case of pedos and stalkers =D

Nickname: Fong, Fongers, Fong Fong...anything with Fong in the beginning, or middle...or end

Grade: I'm in the 4th term of Year 9 (technically term 3 holidays but who cares)

I love anything musical even though I'm a noob at all of it and my friends are amazing in it.

My best friend's code name on this is Luke and he has been my rock ever since I've met this boy.

I like to do a lot of things like write, draw, sing, dance, cook, play keyboard but I'm really sucky in all of those fields so I gotta get my procrastinating and lazy ass of this computer chair and start practicing.

Two chinese parents, two older sisters and my grandma also lives with me

I'm Christian but not fully yet though I've been having the feeling lately that I've been getting more closer and closer.

I adore people for their talents, personalities, passion and general awesomeness

I am really really shy if you first meet me and I'll be hanging around the people I know more first, but if i see you around more then I'll eventually come out and not shutup =P

My obsession will forever be Sailor Moon

I'm directionally challenged, disorganised, indecisive and messy

I eat anything in front of me as long as it's not chilli or spicy in any way. Even if I'm not hungry and food is just right in front of me, I'll eventually eat it...fast.

I'll do ridiculous things and go to weird lengths to not embarrass myself but in the end I usually embarrass myself more which helped me learn that the best way to brush those kinds of things of is to laugh it off and be comfortable with silly mistakes. Of course I don't always remember this sometimes.

I don't get angry, more annoyed or frustrated but never fully angry/raging/yelling&telling off. I try best to avoid confrontations or conflict. Yeah I'm one of those people =P

I try my best not to judge and listen first, but I admit I can get a bit prejudice and biased

If I ever get the rare compliment I get embarrassed but inside I'm like....having a freaking fireworks jumping for joy in accomplishment kind of thing. Outside I smile and say thank you as calmly as I can.

I'm a freak as you can probably tell

I'm a sucker for sweets, musicals, cute/epic cartoon characters and Disney/Movie songs.

The things I dislike most in people is backstabbing, behind the back talking, grudges, unjustified anger or reasons.

I love my friends and family very much even if sometimes they can be not so....understanding or as supportive or sensitive to me. We all have those moments.

Yeah this was WAAAAAAAAAAAAY longer then I intended. Imma go to sleepie nows. Gnite, ttyl, maybe cya around. Ily.

Last one! I swear!

Hey, if I find out that you're an amazing/brilliant musician and happen to do a cover of Taylor Swift, I HAVE to feature it on this sad little blog which no one reads. If you do read this then pls msg me or comment. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to no one...again. Sometimes good thing sometimes not =P ANYWAYS:

Oh gosh...

Yeah three in a row now. Going for gold! lol this one has to be the funniest/most beuatiful Beauty and the Beast thingy I've ever heard. Watch his Disney cover series, his Kiss The Rain/ River Flows In You medley cover and pretty much everything else. <3

Yet another youtube post...

Yeah two i a row. RECORD! lol I'm so sad. It's the same guy who sang with another girl in a medley with Can You Feel The Love Tonight and A Whole New World Video which I featured...last month?? Anyways check his channel out. He's awesome. This is also a secret favourite song of mine from HSM xP. Shhh...hahahha

Youtube

Sammy's friends:

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Secret #26

I've got this stupid dream of being either a songwriter, pilot, fashion designer, professional photographer or zoologist

My hair smells weird

hahah I look like a freak just sniffing my own hair by myself in the corner of my room....xD

I use the Classic Herbal Essences that smells like roses and stuff. Right now It smells like a mix of bubble mix, vanilla and my sisters perfume. Which is nice but weird. Is this what I usually smell like and only noticed it now or has someone been tampering with my shampoo or am I doing too much random stuff lately? wth????

Phone usage

Usage: $115.60
Cap that I am on: $29















crap

Unhealthy

Breakfast - Sammy's left over cold noodles and smoked chicken
Lunch - Milk tea with chocolate covered biscuits in the shape of bears
Dinner - Rice and pork
Dessert - Warm milk, the biscuits again except this time with whipped cream and mini chocolates

Physical activity today - Dancing and walking around the house aka minimum...the usual

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Cannot put this book down...

Mao's Last Dancer. Finished it in two days (probably less, started it last night and finished this afternoon). Cried.....3-6 times....memory is a little sketchy, I was reading until 2:30 last night. Twas brilliant. Easy to read, it looks thick but it has a reasonable size font. And bonus pictures in the middle that takes up a couple of pages so thats a bonus too. Or just watch the movie....and still read the book after. *nodnod

Today

went to city with grandma and sammy to see the chinese doctor. Then we went market city and ate at Poporo. It was yummy *nodnod. lol. Then we walked around and bought food for home. I ate most of my pocky in the car though =(. then we went back to the doctors to pick up heaps of medicine for grandma. As we were going back to easties, Sammy picked upher friend and then we went to eastgardens. Sammy got her hair layered and me and grandma just went to buy some stuff for the restaurant. Then we drove to pick up Alan's grandma and then droppedher off at the restaurant. Nothing especially exciting....Right now I'm drinking V and getting ready to read Mao's Last Dancer which Auntie Pat just brought over. =D

One Day

I hope to be able to write my own songs and play them with my keyboard like this:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/savannahjane/3908487630/

Current Music Moods:

Anything acoustic or piano. Indie, alternative/pop and dance. Or anything sweet and light. Anything familiar or reminds me of a happy memory. And here I am in the darkness, the only light coming from the computer screen and a small lamp beside me, I listen to Mighty To Save by Hillsong through my earphones so I don't wake Michelle up and pretend I'm singing. Then I look though jane.bird's Flickr account. This girl has inspired me so much in more than one way.

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Keyboard

I love it. I'm playing the same three songs everyday though....cause I suck at everything else =D. BUT I've done like...a quarter of 9 Crimes by Damien Rice. It's a bit depressing but nice at the same time.

Holiday movie list:

I don't care if I have to go by myself, I will watch all these:

• 500 Days of Summer
• Ponyo
• G-Force
• Couples Retreat
• Funny People
• Up (3-D)
• Mao's Last Dancer (My great aunt's nephew is the executive producer of this, they went the the premier red carpet night thingy and he said a speech and introduced the guy which this movie is based on who lives in Melbourne now. I find this extremely cool)

Virgo Horoscope - Dolly

24 August - 23 September
Life You prefer to leave the role of class clown to someone else, but this month, you'll be talkative, lively and captivating. This is a great time to write poems, a screenplay or even start a journal or blog.
Love You'll attract an intelligent guy who keeps up with you on a mental level, understands you completely and always makes you laugh. It'll being as a friendship but will turn into something more.
Virgo Guy He'll be funny, expressive and full of surprises.

Spent my morning

Lying in bed, going to the post office, going to the newsagency, watching 'Make It Happen', dancing like an idiot, reading a new magazine I bought and then reading and music.

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And just like that...

...i felt lonely again. I was left alone again among a crowd of people.

This really got to me...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/savannahjane/3242891344/

"i just ate love, it tastes burnt"

Went to Georgie's tday for a bake day. Me, Steph, Migi, Sharon and Georgie made wontons and cheese triangles while listening to my Paramore CDs and the occassional Wii. Twas awesome then we ate and watced Yesman which is funny funny funny. Heart Jim Carey.

Then we went to the park right next to georgie's park and went on her go kart thingy down her hill. I crashed into the fence xD. oh yeah I am so cool.

Then we played soccer which i haven't played in years. At the beginning of the game me, steph and shazz were on one team while georgie, her sister and migi were on the other. Then I was the only person on my team versing migi and georgie and her sister. I got sooooooo tired and I felt SO unfit xD. but yeah it was so fun. I love soccer.

Then we just sat on the grass and sang songs from TV and movies. Then Migi and Shazz had to go so then me and Steph caught the bus.

It was a really good day. We planned to go Wylie's on Wednesday and then city on Saturday.

P.S oh and about the title. Migi made the words Paramore, ily and BNE (Brand New Eyes) out of the left over pastry. Steph accidentally left it in the oven a little too long so it was a little burnt. I ate the L from ily and it was burnt alllllllll the way through.

hahaha

Out of all the brilliant photo's this girl has taken i think i love this one the most =P

whodunnit? 034/365 by emma hope on flickr

Two words, one name:

Erin McCarley

stumbled upon a quote:

"The world isn't simple.
It's a messy, complicated place
Where there's rarely just one answer to a question.
And always more than one side to a story"

Waiting in general sucks..

..but we all do it anyways for what we we're waiting for.

It's

sometimes hard not to think about it and relate back to it while reading or watching a movie. I then become frustrated at myself for going back there.

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Holidays

I can already tell that all my holidays are going to consist of keyboard playing, singing, watching things on the laptop and the occassional outing. I don't mind, being a loner is underrated. At least nothing too dangerous can happen while I'm in the confines of my house right Luke?

P.S. Glee is awesome

Monopoly Night

We haven't played in months! But tonight we played monopoly: city. It was a little retarded but I came third =D.

I hate it when my sisters and family accuse me of something. They all aren't even home for more then half the time and when they are home they talk to me for 5% of that time, probably less. Then Sam tells me off for "being on my phone 24/7". This pissed me off for several reasons:

• She uses her phone ten times more then I do and she has TWO phones
• I was just checking a text and looked at it twice before she yelled at me
• She only talks to me when I have to fix the internet, turn the printer on or showing off something new she bought. She has no right to yell at me for something that I didn't do

I also hate when they're hypocritcal. Like when they tell me not to use that voice at someone and then they do the exact same thing ten seconds later.

Then during the times they talk to me it's either a favour or something to put me down. Then when I actually stand up for myself or try to ignore it then I'm "giving them attitude" or "being a smart ass". You'd think after more then 5 years of this I'd be used to it. I'm starting to not give a damn about what they say anymore. Yeah that's right, I'm giving them "attitude". It's called bottling it up inside so that I don't have to pour 5 years of low self esteem and hurt out at you.

Wow, from monopoly night to a teenage angsty rant about how stupid my family can be. Yeah that's great.

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Cinderella

Waiting for the clock to strike twelve so that another day passes and then I can finally unleash my download monster...muahahahha xD

Secret #25

I got to talk to you today and even though it lasted for only a few minutes, I treasured every second of it. I hope you're having fun and keeping safe

Progress

On the keyboard I have officially learnt:

• River Flows In You - Yiruma (Fong's easier/shorter version)
• Missing You - 1st Lady
• Wonderments - Bethany Joy Lenz

not much but me happy =D

Wondering..

I'm sitting down in front my my keyboard that you all bought for my birthday and wonder what you all are doing right now.

Friend Appreciation Mood #2

I hope you guys know you're all awesome, no matter what.

National by chuckp - Flickr

Wait, don't go, take me with you. I miss you.

Now I've got a feeling if I sang this loud enough you would sing it back to me

Where the Lines Overlap - Paramore

Looking Up - Paramore

Things are looking up, oh finally!
I thought I'd never see the day when you smile at me.
We always pull through
oh when we try,
I'm always wrong but you're never right.
You're never right!

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in, cuz I've always wanted this!
It's not a dream anymore! Ohhh..
It's not a dream anymore! It’s worth fighting for.

Could have given up so easily
I was a few cheap shots away from the end of me
Taken for granted, almost everything that I would have died for
Just yesterday,
Just yeterday

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in, cuz I've always wanted this!
It's not a dream anymore! Ohhh..
It's not a dream anymore! It’s worth fighting for.

God knows the world doesn’t need another band, (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
But what a waste it would’ve been! (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
I can't believe we almost -- (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
We're just getting started (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while it's asleep?
I'd never trade it in, cuz I've always wanted this!
It's not a dream anymore! Ohhh..
It's not a dream anymore! It’s worth fighting for.

I can't believe we almost hung it up (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
We're just getting started (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
I can't believe we almost hung it up (whoo-oa, whooo-oa!)
We're just getting started
We're just getting started.

I'm

in love with every song on Paramore's new album, "Brand New Eyes". Buy it! Download if you like, but having the CD is so much better! <3333

This teenage angst that comes from us and our biggest worries about life...

I really hope it's just a phase

Running from lions

Has anyone noticed how we're cramping, sweating and panting in this race? And yet we don't know what the hell we're all running towards. Do we really want to reach the end? Do we really have to strain outselves to get there? Can't we just slow down a little and let ourselves breathe for a while?

Proud Purchases

Today I went to easties and bought:

• Ring with engraving as a going away present for Luke
• Pizza bread from Baker's Delight (my first ever purchase there)
• Iced Chocolate from Wendy's
• The heart earrings I always wanted from Tree of Life
• "All We Know" and "Brand New Eyes" Paramore cds from JB Hi Fi

I'm so happy, I haven't bought anything for myself in so long. The Paramore songs and lyrics are sooooooooo awesome and I wore the earrings after I left Tree of Life. I hope Luke likes his present.

Promise Me - Bethany Joy Lenz

It hasn’t even been two days
And I already miss you like hell
What am I going to do
If I ever lose you?

The thought of you leaving me
Has got me hyperventilating
I can’t breathe
Cant function
Without you

Promise me
You’ll stay with me
Promise me
You’ll hold me tight
Promise me
You’ll always stay by my side
And never say good bye

Sometimes at night I can’t sleep
You gave me insomnia
The only way I can drift to sleep
Is knowing I might see you in my dreams

Promise me
You’ll stay with me
Promise me
You’ll hold me tight
Promise me
You’ll always stay by my side
And never say good bye

This distance and the time in between
Won’t come between you and me
But sometimes it’s just so hard

Promise me
You’ll stay with me
Promise me
You’ll hold me tight
Promise me
You’ll always stay by my side
And never say good bye

I hate it when I just want to cry it all out but I 'm so upset that not one tear can be shed. Makes me feel like an even bigger failure.