Ever had the thought that their life would be better if you didn't exist?

Things I Aim To Do

• Get good on NAPLAN
• Learn to cook
• Be more organized (for real this time)
• Be nicer =P
• Be exceptionally good so that parents shall let me out whenever I ask
• Save money
• Write and draw every chance I get

Easter Show(s)

Well the first I went with Ray, Win, Cuz, Em, Wheel, Harry and Feelia. It was pouring. We got soaked. it was so fun. Every ride we went on only got us even more wet. The first ride we went on was the Mega Drop, I was half crying in the line. I went up and dropped 45 meters. I couldn't even scream or open my eyes, except at the top, it was a great view. We came home around 8ish and ordered pizza.

Second time I went with eph-stay, Lucas and pretty much everyone else. It wasn't raining but it was windy. We didnt go on as many rides but we still had fun. We went to the little games stores, dared each other to pet cows, go on the pirate revenge (best ride ever).

By 5 or 6 eph-stay had to leave so me and her ran through the giant waterfall fountain thing and got every inch of ourselves soaked. As soon as we got out it started pouring down rain so we ran for the bus stop. As soon as eph-stay left we went to have hurricane in the city. We were soooooooooooo cold and tired by the time we were on the train back to central. So were really tired of walkng too so we trekked to Hurricane and it tasted SO good at the end of the day.

Luke has a half rack of ribs by himself, me and the girls shared a half rack between us and got hungry again. So we went downstairs and bought ice cream (reeeeeeeeeeally good ice cream, i recommend the strawberry) and then took photos on the harbour. Then we went our serperate ways and went home. Luke and his 'rents took me and Abz home. Good day =D

Filler Blog

Well yet again, no post for ages. I've noticed the only blogs that have been updated recently and consistantly are the food blogs and ones where the people are overseas.

My Easter Holidays: Sleeping in, movies, fanfiction, Fast & Furious 4, 17 Again, Dragonball Z, haircut and of course the Easter Show. (Will blog bout it later)

Now: Back to school wearing our dusted off carpets and stockings, what the school likes to call the winter uniform. Sport is ten pin bowling which is awesome. And already straight away bitch smacked in the face with exams, assignments and wait for it.....NAPLAN.

Life's been pretty settled and as frustrating as usual. The ordinary pissed off outburst everyday, talking to each other only when we want a favour or something done, wasting our lives in front of the computer...the usual.

*clench, unclench, clench, unclench*

-breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out-

scream

Slap On The Wrist

• I really shouldn't start the month off with negative posts for example the previous two.
  
• I really shouldn't express my feelings and talk about them to people cause it cause ripples in the water that can end up in massive disasters.
  
• I really shouldn't blog about this kind of crap where I know certain people can or will read this
  

but the selfish part of me that wants them to know does blog it up into the world where only not even 3 people read this random outlet of mixed feelings.


God I hate myself...and right now I sound like a whiny, emo, depressed teenager when in fact I'm just being a teenager going through the self-hate/ discovery phase which is seriously pissing me off.


Lets forget I ever wrote this ok?


I keep on playing scenarios in my head when people will say "well if she doesn't want people to know, then the insensitive, whiny little bitch wouldn't post it up on the freaking internet for everyone in the world to see." I agree but this is the only way I know how to say these kinds of things without confronting anything or anyone. I'm a nine, I avoid conflict.


Now I shall save this in drafts.

Have you ever done something really small but hate yourself for it no matter how stupid it is?? 

I do it all the time.

Random Blog

I dont know....... I've been feeling really weird lately, more bad then good. Like it's a feeling in my heart that doesnt give me trouble breathing it just makes me breathe in a bit more and it feels more weird when I breathe.

I think it might just be me worrying about stuff like school, family and mainly friends. Like they've just got so much going on and I tend to get....I dnt knowwwwwww......I just act a certain way when bad things happen to good people.

Meh well...nyahhhhhh

Moulin Rouge!

Possibly best musical movie ever! I heart everything in this movie, EVERYTHING. Plot is great, acting is awesome and the music and magical!

And so I have chosen this for my canvas art project...which is due on Thursday...I need spray paint, CRAP. Gotsa go do work now.

Procrastination

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. DUDE. I CANNOT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE. Ok in a science assignment, we have to pretend we're a 30 year old woman who is considering IVF. We write all the information as if it's a diary entry. In the diary entries I have to use formal language describing reproductiveness and IVF information.

A) Who the hell write formally in there dairy
B)Where the hell is the information on this so called "internet"
C) It's due tomorrow, I started it today.

P.s. im blogging from mttie's lappie while he's doing his math and quietly scolding me for procrastinating =D.

Damn...

New art assignment requires me to do a canvas artwork on popular culture things I like/ am obsessed about. I got all excited until it hit me; What the hell am I obsessed with??

I only like things:

• Food
• Manga- Fruits Basket, Sailor Moon, Death Note,
• Drawing
• Music - Paramore, Imogen Heap, Linkin Park, Yiruma
• Instruments - Strings and Piano
• Jeans/denim
• Movies- Moulin Rouge!, everything else....
• Cartoons (comics and animation)- Superheroes (superman, spiderman and the whole DC/Marvel gang), Pokemon, Disney (princesses)
• Sleep
• Books - Twlight, Ancient Future
• Internet - MSN, fanfiction, blogging, youtube

and yeah.....doing Sailor Moon, heheheh and the inner geek comes out =P

Walking Under Ladder Syndrome

Walking Under Ladder Syndrome, also known as WULS. Pretty much a condition and name I made up just then. It means bad luck.

• WANTED: Lost cream Billabong wallet; contains: 10 dollars, sony ericsson phone, house keys and numerous random and mostly useless cards used for decoration. yes it was stolen while i was at school. wahhhhh
• dropped table on foot, hurts like hell
• My computer breaks and when i use em's laptop, i accidentally get a virus on it. computers hate me, they commit technological suicide to get away from me.

Meh, could be worse. It''ll be ok soon enough I guess.

Filler Blog

Haven't blogged in ages for two main reasons

1. I'm lazy
2. My computer is broken...YET AGAIN gahh

So what has happened? Not much. School is school, friends are cool and that was unintentionally rhyming lol.

School:

• It's that time of the month when assignments slowly pile on and you don't notice how many there are utnil you're up late doing it last minute
• THE SHOW THEME: you will not believe it. This is worse then HSM for soooooo many reasons. the theme is "SPIRITACULAR!" -insert spirit fingers here- and the whole plot is a massive gay ripoff of Camp Rock (a movie that made me gag within the first 10 minutes). At a performing arts school, the "Spirit Trophy" is missing! OH NO how do we solve this? Why by singing and dancing of course! yayy. I admit I am dancing in the year 9 dance and singing in choir BUT THATS ALL. XD
• Regretting decision to learn commerce. -_-;
• Eely is leaving! =O

Socially:

• Went to aquarium with Rang, Hayry, Ames, Tash, Lex and Sam. It was fun. DUGONGS ARE CUTE
• Went to the Art Gallery of NSW with mttsie then to Taronga to see the newest additions: the red panda!
• Getting everyone hooked on Dramacon....again xP

Thats about all... not much excitment. I'll post some up sooner then last time =P

Vday 2009

I wouldn't be suprised if the suicide numbers rose on this specific holiday. If you're suffering from heartbreak that happened just recently then this will definately suck for you unless you're totally good about it or if you have a plan to distract yourself.

For the single people on this day, we either do one of two things:

1. Stay in either alone or with company, watch movies, eat and either laugh at the fools in love or depressively wish for that kind of happiness while trying to ignore those around you who are doing things for this day.
   
2. You go out with other single friends, love single life and have the time of your life.
   

I do number 1 mainly because I do that (apart from the depressiveness and laughing) all the time already.

For the single people, you guys have to stress about what you're going to do for your other half today, the flowers, the baking, the secret presents and planning. It can be very annoying but in the end also very rewarding in everyway.

OK enough cheese. I shall go back to my snickers, loud music and DVDs

Blog

Blogging at school. REBELLLL. lol jks.

I THOUGHT I wanted people to read my blog, but now I just realise it's plain embarrassing and makes me nervous, especially when they're reading it in front of you. Ngahhhh

Well, gotta do religion (not really just bludging on computers, as you can see).

I'll post a new one at home!