Monday, 13 April 2009

*clench, unclench, clench, unclench*

-breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out-


Sunday, 5 April 2009

Slap On The Wrist

  • I really shouldn't start the month off with negative posts for example the previous two.
  • I really shouldn't express my feelings and talk about them to people cause it cause ripples in the water that can end up in massive disasters.
  • I really shouldn't blog about this kind of crap where I know certain people can or will read this

but the selfish part of me that wants them to know does blog it up into the world where only not even 3 people read this random outlet of mixed feelings.

God I hate myself...and right now I sound like a whiny, emo, depressed teenager when in fact I'm just being a teenager going through the self-hate/ discovery phase which is seriously pissing me off.

Lets forget I ever wrote this ok?

I keep on playing scenarios in my head when people will say "well if she doesn't want people to know, then the insensitive, whiny little bitch wouldn't post it up on the freaking internet for everyone in the world to see." I agree but this is the only way I know how to say these kinds of things without confronting anything or anyone. I'm a nine, I avoid conflict.

Now I shall save this in drafts.
Have you ever done something really small but hate yourself for it no matter how stupid it is?? 

I do it all the time.

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I dont know....... I've been feeling really weird lately, more bad then good. Like it's a feeling in my heart that doesnt give me trouble breathing it just makes me breathe in a bit more and it feels more weird when I breathe.

I think it might just be me worrying about stuff like school, family and mainly friends. Like they've just got so much going on and I tend to get....I dnt knowwwwwww......I just act a certain way when bad things happen to good people.

Meh well...nyahhhhhh