Sunday, 31 January 2010

Shana Logic

I love House

Psychiatrist: "What's the ending to the story?"
House: "....I don't know."

To Joy and Connie:

Ily. I do. Your boys do. Your friends do. And even though they are idiotic, life ruiners that have some kind of psycho control over us, our families do too.

Dw, you're allowed to feel  sad, angry and you're allowed to hate. But just don't let it ruin the awesome people you are.

OH, and...I'm going to hug you both tomorrow too.

p.s. if i'm sounding too cheesy and weird etc., apologies.

Obsessed with

ShanaLogic's new stock
going with the flow.

Robot + Panda=

Now my dream wardrobe

Saturday, 30 January 2010

I went from being the cure to being the cause

I don't know what to say anymore

600th Post.


 Connie's and Joy's blog. Make me think.

I think the longest we've been apart is a week and a bit.


Stay strong girls!

Wednesday, 27 January 2010

Goodbye Summer


Good fanfiction always leaves me giggling like a little school girl. Teehee.

I have no life.

Tuesday, 26 January 2010


Health Goal

Date: 26th January, 2010
Age: 15 and 4 months
Height: 157cm
Weight: 48kg

Goal: Every 3 months I shall check my height and weight. By the end of the year, my weight will not surpass 50...hopefully. xD If I pass 52 I will be very disappointed with myself.

This is my attempt at keeping healthy for this year. Wish me luck.

Comfort Food

Food and TV can always make me feel better. Which is why I'm fat.

P.S. Brad from the Bachelor has the most gorgeous coloured eyes. Ever. Maybe...

I'm such a screw up

Family matters

When a family member sees you crying, aren't they supposed to try to comfort you? Or at least give you some understanding space?

They shouldn't look at you like you're pathetic and make an annoyed noise and then force you to come out of the room cause they're cleaning. Especially if it's your mother.

Happy Australia Day

Dead phone. Offline. Not home.

Monday, 25 January 2010

Hating someone and being mad at someone are completely different things.

Claddagh Ring

This is a Claddagh Ring. Originated from Ireland.

A ring that had two hands holding a crowned heart. It was on Buffy heheh.

Right Hand: If the heart is point towards yourself, that means you're taken; if it's pointing outwards then you're single.

Left Hand: If the heart is pointing outwards then it mean you're engaged; if it's pointing inwards it means you're married

“With my two hands, I give you my heart and crown it with my love.”

Sammy has had one ever since we were little and has kept on finding it and losing it around the place. I want one. xD

Sunday, 24 January 2010


Very cute. Very overseas.

On the ice you must not be anti-social!

Yesterday was 39 freaking degrees. Spent half the day at Easties buying stationery and then going to Toy Story 1&2 3D with Luke. Went for 3 hours and a bit. Twas good.

Then I went home, got ready and walked over to Vanessa's place around 6.30. It's really nice. Her dog and cat are so calm. They don't go psycho when people come over. They just walk around you for a while and then they go sit around the house. They're so cute.

Around 7.30, everyone was there and so we drove to Canterbury ice skating rink. It's been years since I've ice skated, about....8 or 9 years. But I got used to it afer like...half an hour xD. They were playing some really good songs and they turned the lights of and only had spotlights and stuff. Ice skating disco!

There was really pro people that were scaring me everytime they whooshed past. I had to glide everytime I heard them cause I'm scared that they'd crash into me or the fast vortex of air they leave behind would make me stack it. Speaking of which I stacked it only 4 times! As Laura said I "stacked it gracefully" hahahah.

Very fun day. HBD NESSA AND ALEX!

Friday, 22 January 2010

*Sad Face*

I'm missing out on the perfect evening with you tonight.
I'm not mad at the world. I'm just bored with mine.

Hugs should be the language of the world

Tumblr Quote 3

"She’s one of those girls who doesn’t know what she’s doing, but she wants to know everything will be worth it one day. She isn’t amazing at one thing, just good at a lot of things, and that’s all she’ll ever be. She wishes she could be different, but she lives her life to the fullest anyway. All she truly needs is love to keep her sane. She looks at her world like it’s a book, with pages being read everyday. She’s her own worst enemy and hardest critic. She knows she has flaws and tries to accept them, even though she knows she never fully will. More than anything, though, she just wants to make a difference one day, and she wants someone to remember her name."


Thursday, 21 January 2010

Rowena R

I'm happy

It's not just because I think that I'm happy, or that I want to be happy.

I'm just thinking about everything and I am truely and genuinely happy.

If I had a tumblr, I'd follow her:

Tumblr Quotes 2

"I wish I was pretty. I wish I was smart. I wish I was good at something. I wish I had friends that actually liked me. I wish I was doing something with my life. I wish I knew what I want in the future. I wish I got good grades. I wish people liked me. I wish I remembered what it's like to laugh, really really laugh. I wish I was older. I wish I was perfect. I wish I wasn't such a whiny bitch."

Tumblr Quotes 1

May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art — write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.
— Neil Gaiman

How do I act?

Certain people call me a little kid because of how I look, talk and act sometimes.

Others say it's like they're talking to a 20 year old cause of the advice, input and knowledge I have and give.

I don't know whether I'm trying to act older or younger then I am. I'm the youngest of three with an age gap of 5 and 7 with my two older sisters. I had to grow up and mature with them or I'd feel left behind. But when I'm with certain people, I would act like a little kid and get excited by small things. At the same time, I'm the oldest in my group but you wouldn't think that if you met me and my friends.

How is a 15 year old supposed to act like anymore?

It's amazing how one small light can make everything beautiful

Flashback moment2

I've never bought or chosen a school bag in my life. Not even in Primary school. High school, fair enough, it's compulsory to have the school's bag.

In primary school I hated my Pooh bear bag cause it was a light caramel cream colour that stood out kiddishly from the dark navy surfer or school bags.

But now I realise I was being stupid. Because you know what? Pooh bear is damn cool.

Year of the Tiger!

Chinese New Year is on Valentines day this is. Ayyahhhhhh

Wednesday, 20 January 2010

Flashback moment

Man.....I would've hated little me.

Should I

get a tumblr?

It's partially peer pressure, partially conformity and partially for myself too.

I feel like I'm cheating on blogspot with tumblr. *sigh


Wahhhhhhhhh. Come back to blogspot guys! Where's your sense of loyalty?


Courtney feels abandoned. Damn tumblr! Why do you have to be so good?

Monday, 18 January 2010

I bought chalk!

YAY! I can draw in my backyard now!

Bought it today also with my new HAIRCUT. Looks like my last one sorta but with subtle difference.

Met up with the girls and walked around doing nothing and buying nothing. Tried on dresses and forced people to wear dresses *COUGHSHARONCOUGH* cause of this years formal. Btw people, why do you buy your dresses now if it's at the END OF YEAR? weirdos xD

And Lukie came around 3ish and we just dragged him around as we went to more clothes shops. Then me and Luke went to KFC, saw Melsie and she suprised us with a drink mixed of every soft drink avaliable at KFC hahaha. Then the girls came and then went home.


Then the girls left and me and Lukie went to Myer to try find another dress. It was a pretty black one. Didn't buy it tee hee. Then went to bus stop but Luke's dad was gna drive him home so I caught the bus back.

City tomorrow. Kareoke, Caps and food galore! DX

Sunday, 17 January 2010


I love Jim Carrey

I want to

make a dance to Fireflies by Owl City. Don't know why. The song has been stuck in my head all day. When I got in the shower and turned on the radio, the song was the first thing that played.

(L) Owl City

Saturday, 16 January 2010

Fruits Basket

Can always make me cry. That's...quite sad. xD

BTW I'm back into anime and manga again. I'm just waiting for the drawing phase to come back.

Friday, 15 January 2010

People I'd love to be

Honda Tohru - Fruits Basket
Sweet, innocent and optimistic. Also the fact that she's caught up with gorgeous men and a magical curse and dangerous secrets.

Tsukino Usagi - Sailor Moon
Beautiful, strong, powerful, selfless and also optimistic. A reincarnated princess of the moon with a soulmate, best friends, a talking cat guardian and a superhero secret identity.

Svetlana Chmkova - Dramacon, Chasing Rainbows etc.
Smart, creative, hilarious, down to earth. She's the author and illustrator of a number of series and comic books. I'd love to be her because she gets to draw and write for a living and inspire people like me in the mean time.

Any one of my friends - Life
Cause they're beautiful, brilliant, smart, funny, considerate and honest. And they put up with me...most of the time =P.


Something is weighing on my heart, depriving me of sleep and sanity.

I don't know what it is but I can feel it.

Thursday, 14 January 2010

11 Posts Yesterday

Was that too much???


Well. Decided not to post them up. Cause if I tell you, then they might not come true.

Wednesday, 13 January 2010


New skin, new title and new weblink.

Well it's a New Year and I figured, "Hey, change is good and I'm getting tired of the old name of my blog (Crescent Love...ahh geez)."

So I decided to set a goal. I shall try not to ever delete this blog. So one day if I ever follow this goal into my mid 20's or even mid 30's or something, I can look back on how stupid  my teenage angsty mind was and laugh at it. I hope to still be writing this blog even when the internet becomes insignifcant and the computer is the new version of a video tape aka the future.

And every three or so years I shall renovate. To increase value =P.

The Transit of Courtney: Transit means change and moving from one place to another. Courtney is my name and wow it looks really weird because no one ever calls me that anymore except for family. This title is just going to be another regret for my next renovation. Meh.

Ok people,

seriously. Who reads this thing? TELL MEEEE. Or I shall result to half empty threats, puppy dog eyes and lotsssssssss of tears. Oh yeah, I just went there. So tell me!


Julie: "What do you think it means if you don't like your friends?"
Sarah: "It's completely normal"
Eric: "Men like their friends"
Sarah: "We're not talking about men. Who's talking about men?"

lol. I love Amy Adams. Good movie. Motivates me in my cooking and my blogging.

Anonymous or strangers commenting on my blog make me feel like my stupid, insignificant but real thoughts and words are being read and listened to.

God bless. =)


Half the things I want are getting their prices slashed.

I want the Golden Key necklace, the Mirror Mirror on the Wall necklace, Falling Leaves earrings, Little Leaf necklace and the Antique Bird Cage earrings.

But it's in Americaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


got a site that has some good blogskins??

I'm going to be brave

If we were born 10 minutes later then we should have but died at the right time, what 10 minutes of our life would we have lost?

Late nights make me philosophical =P

I feel different

and I can't tell if it's good or bad.

I have no idea what this year shall bring. Thankfully my curiosity and excitment are overriding my fear.

Not just for you

sometimes, it's for me too.

Do you

have a person who knows your deepest, darkest secrets? Who knows everything about you?

Can you tell this person the things you are most ashamed of? Can you do it feeling confident?

Do you touch on awkward subjects, random thoughts and meaningful feelings?

Do you have to be cautious about what and how you say things or can you talk to them without fearing judgment?

Who is this person?

Falling eyelashes and falling stars

If you could make any 10 wishes what would they be?

I'll post mine up later

Tuesday, 12 January 2010

Let's learn

how to Zumba!

I wish I had insomnia


Just because it gives you so much more time to do things. 7-12 hours of missed out sleep can lead to a lot of things.

Monday, 11 January 2010

Gonna chalk up my backyard this week. hehehe.

Sunday, 10 January 2010


10 Thing’s You Want For Christmas:

1. Buffy seasons 3-7
2. iTunes giftcard
3. $$$$$$$$
4. Headphones that I can plug into my keyboard
5. Recording gear
6. iPod case/cover
7. Camera (shyt I lost mine at ikea. Family still doesn't know. I'll replace it soon enough)
8. Jewellry
9. Chocolate, or dessert. *drool*
10. A pet other then fish

9 Musicians/Bands You Love:

1. Paramore
2. Owl City
3. Mayday Parade
4. Taylor Swift
5. Imogen Heap
6. Goo Goo Dolls
7. The Fray
8. Legaci
9. AJ Rafael

8 Things You Do Everyday:

1. Wake up late
2. Morning routine (teeth, face, clothes, brekky)
4. Sing
5. Ares or iTunes for music
6. MSN
7. Eat
8. Worry

7 Things I Enjoy:

4. Going to the park on sunny days
5. Watching movies in cinemas and buying cds
6. Shopping and wasting money
7. Having an awesome time with friends

6 Things That Will ALWAYS Win Your Heart:

1. Understanding
2. Smile
3. Eyes
4. Hair
5. Passion and/or talent
6. Humour


1.“She doesn't even go here!”
2.“Holy funky mother of crabcake!”
3.“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges"
4.“Battle Royale!”
5.“We have to save her before they make her a meal”
"Oh my God! They're going to cook her dinner?!....Lets pretend I didn't just say that."

4 Smells You Enjoy:

1. Rain
2. Library
3. The smell that lets you know that food is ready
4. Hugs. Yes, hugs have a smell. It's just different everytime.

3 Place You Want To Go:

1. Japan
2. Europe
3. Hurricanes in the city. mmmmmm.

2 Holidays You Love:

1. Christmas
2. Summer holidays

1 Person You Would Marry On The Spot:

1. Chad Michael Murray. hehehe. ;P


I can play the NCIS theme song on keyboard xD heheheh. Also the chords to You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift. I love her songs. Now in process of leanring Dark Blue by Jack's Mannequin. I went psycho when I found this =P

Friday, 8 January 2010

Gonna Try

do a cover for Erin McCarley - Gotta Figure This Out

I've got a lot to try and figure out

This feeling I've been having will stop soon enough. The feeling I've been having for the past couple of days/weeks. At home. All day.

I wonder when you're gonna figure out that I'm not worth it....worth anything.

I can sleep on it. But I know it'll be there in the morning. Can't pretend it's not there. I'll get over it soon enough. By myself. Even if you read this.


Ling (Zero) - Alan Ke You Lun

Mars Theme Song

Thursday, 7 January 2010


self⋅ish /ˈ Pronunciation [sel-fish]
1. devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.
2. characterized by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives.

"Someone who has more than they need"
--Gino Conte

Is thinking selfish things but no acting upon them just as bad as doing selfish things? Is selfish motive equal to selfish thoughts? (To skip all the random ass internet babble talk, please skip to last sentence)

Of course selfish thoughts doesn't harm anyone except for the person thinking them. The it's the fact that the person is having those thoughts and the possibility of acting upon it.

Is it really good to be selfless all the time? Would you rather be selfless all the time or selfish all the time?? I have a friend who doesn't believe that selflessness exists. He thinks that people only act selflessly to gain their own self satisfaction or to receive praise from others and therefore the act of selflessness is actually selfish. Did that make sense?

I think he's wrong though. There a some genuine people out there who just want to help out people. Albeit those people are rare nowadays but yes, they do exist.

He'd refute that people wouldn't want to be selfless and help others if they hated doing good for everyone else, they'd have to enjoy the feeling of helping others and therefore: selfish.

Let's re-evaluate the meaning again.

1. devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.
2. characterized by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives.

I think his definition of being selfless is doing things for other people that you don't like doing. But then again, he believe's selflessness isn't real.

So....the real point of this whole blogpost is to ask myself and everyone else: Am I a selfish person?

Highlight of the day

A group of hip teens like myself *cough* walking past my house and one of the overly loud guys yells out :

"Hold my drink. Actually, hold my poodle. HOLD MY POODLE"

hahaha ahhh White Chick references are always win.

A Productive Day At The Restaurant

Wednesday, 6 January 2010

Stay In Movie

with Mich and Will. Here's how it goes. Will comes over and then they spend a couple of hours trying to decide what to do. They decide on watching a movie and so they go out and buy snacks.

Come home, I steal some food and listen in on what's going on in the movie while doing whatever. Then the movie ends around 1ish.


I really do

wonder. Maybe a bit too much. I'm only human...

Another productive day

in front of the computer, watching Buffy, binge eating and feeling sorry for myself. Life is good.


Can't tell if my style has changed, if it hasn't and whether it got better or worse

Monday, 4 January 2010

Making someone's day

is one of the greatest gifts I could try to give.

Saturday, 2 January 2010

Hide & Seek - Imogen Heap

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall
Crop circles in the carpet
Sinking feeling

Spin me around again and rub my eyes
This can't be happening
When busy streets a mess with people
Would stop to hold their heads heavy

Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines
All those years
They were here first

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity
Of this still life

Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines
Blood and tears
They were here first

Mm what'cha say?
Mm, that you only meant well
Well of course you did

Mm what'cha say?
Mm that it's all for the best
Of course it is

Mm what'cha say?
Mm that it's just what we need
You decided this?

Mm what'cha say?
Mm what did you say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet-talk newspaper word cutouts (paper word cutouts)
Speak no feeling; no, I don't believe you
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit

I love

reading Connie's blog. ;P

Why can't I

see that I'm saying the wrong things?

Why do I only realise while I'm saying it or later on?

I think I'm too scared say anything now.

..ok then...

Friday, 1 January 2010

Didn't know

there was so much blood in the knee. Crap, now the blood on the floor....AND ON MY NEW WHITE HAVIANAS. grawr