Monday, 29 March 2010

nothing. absolutely nothing. nothing at all.
Stop blaming me for things I can't control
Stop making me feel horrible about things that aren't my fault
Stop making me feel like I'm only holding you back and hurting you with everything I do.

I'm sorry.

Sunday, 28 March 2010

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"
Heb 11:1
I'm carrying the world
All my expectations
I'm trying to be everything
But now I'm left in pieces

Push away the hurt
Give me inspiration
Open up a window to
A view of something beautiful.

stop tearing me apart.

Friday, 26 March 2010

What to do
Where to go
Who to be

Quote of the day

*Laura reaches for curtain string*
Laura: Damnit, I can't wait until I get superpowers.

Thursday, 25 March 2010


teehee. Me, Luke and Gary walked Emily home.

We met the cats that live near her house and her little sister and her mum. Apparently when we left Em's mum brought out ice tea for us. I feel so bad xD. So we decided we shall go to Em's every week. Muahaha.

Lol I stole Gary's chocolate lynx and sprayed myself with it. Me like =P

Monday, 22 March 2010

Paradise - Vanessa Carlton

Once upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been
But nothing hurts
And nothing bleeds
When covers tucked in tight
Finally when the bottom drops
She forgets to fight
To fight

And it's
One more day in paradise
One more day in paradise

As darkness quickly steals the light that shines within her eyes
She slowly swallows all her fears
And soothes her mind with lies
Well all she wants and
All she needs are
Reasons to survive
A day in which the sun will take her artificial light
Her light

And one more day in paradise
One more day in paradise
It's one more day in paradise
One last chance to feel alright

Don't pretend to hold it in
Just let it out
Don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
Don't you try to hold it in
Just let it out
Don't you try to hold it in

One more day in paradise
One more day in paradise
It's one more day in paradise
One last chance to feel alright

One upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been

A lot of memories with this song. Mainly bad ones. But as weird and psycho as this may sound, it's kind of comforting from time to time.

6th period

Me: Coconut and sultana, sitting in a tree
Liys: =='
Me: K-I-S-S-I-N-G
Me: First come juice,
Liys: Juice?
Me: What else comes from fruit?
Liys: Seeds
Liys: *sudden realisation dawns on face* WAIT, NO, I TAKE THAT BACK


Sunday, 21 March 2010


I don't know what I want anymore. Not now and not my future. I don't know what to do. I don't know who I want to be. I just, don't know. I'm getting really sick at hearing myself saying it too.

The What if's:

if one thing didn't happen
if we decided to stay friends
if you both were still together
if we never became friends
if you never started talking to me
if you hated me
if we met in a later time in our lives
if I screwed up without realising more than I think
if I'm going to screw everything up
if we never met.

Too scary to think about it. But it's always there to think about.

Saturday, 20 March 2010

Bruce Almighty was on tonight.

Parting your soup is not a miracle Bruce, it's a magic trick. A single mom who's working two jobs, and still finds time to take her son to soccer practice, that's a miracle. A teenager who says "no" to drugs and "yes" to an education, that's a miracle. People want me to do everything for them. What they don't realize is *they* have the power. You want to see a miracle, son? Be the miracle. 

I love Morgan Freeman and Jim Carrey

Friday, 19 March 2010

I'm just going to go hate myself now

btw....I don't even know.

Thursday, 18 March 2010

I've got to be honest

I know you're stressed and all, and you didn't say anything wrong. But for some reason, I was a little about how you left. But it's just a little thing right? I'm just being picky.

You're turning me into an overthinking obsessor.

Monday, 15 March 2010


Sometimes, I just want to fast forward to when I'm in uni, sure of what I want to be and working towards my dreams.

Sometimes, I want to rewind to primary school of no assignments, spelling tests and the ABC channel, when I'm unsure of what I want to be and think about my dreams.

Sometimes, I want to fast forward to when I'm in my 20's and travelling the world, enjoying the nightlife, making memories and enjoying the pleasures of life that God has given us.

Sometimes, I want to rewind back to when I was little when everything was sweet, simple and no one would tell you that fairytales don't come true.

Sometimes, I want to fast forward to when I'm married, have my kids and a job I love just to prove to those people who told me fairytales don't come true, that they were wrong.

But all I have is now, so I should stop pressing pause everytime something goes wrong and just keep on going.

I adore you.

All of you. Everyone.

Emjayjay's tumblr

14895.) how could someone like me, when i don’t even like me?

*sigh even sammy has tumblr now. I'm staying loyal to blogspot til it shuts down! (not like thats going to happen)

Sunday, 14 March 2010


Courtney says: (6:16:07 PM)

* Gino (F) ##? says: (6:16:11 PM)
faaaaahk me sideways with a fork =[

* Gino (F) ##? says: (6:16:21 PM)
noo sheee said she had to go

Courtney says: (6:16:35 PM)
lol with a fork...

One of my sets

I think, the more personal something is, the more people can relate.I can't explain and I won't even try

Kinda reminds me of something. Right?

I don't want to be so sick again!

I want to be able to go out with everyone, eat junkfood, be able to kiss and hug without be scared of getting you sick.

And yes I even want to go to school!

Saturday, 13 March 2010

Almost Alice

I'm  in love with the new Alice in Wonderland soundtrack! It has great songs from Avril Lavigne, Wolfmother, All American Rejects, Plain White T's and so much more.

I especially love Owl City's song: "The Technicolour Phase"

P.S Laura has two spare tickets to CobraStarship and Owl City is supporting act. I want to go but I don't at the same time. I'm just going for Owl City *heart*

Unintentional rhyming right here

I want a kiss hello
I want a kiss goodbye
I want a kiss goodmorning
I want a kiss goodnight

Friday, 12 March 2010

Confessions of 2009 ♥ (Late but bored)

(♥) almost/was in a relationship
(♥) stayed single for the whole year
() made out in/on a car
() kissed in the snow
() celebrated Halloween
(♥) kissed in the rain
(♥) had your heart broken
(♥) broke someone else's heart
() had a stalker
(♥) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(♥) had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
() gotten pregnant
() had an abortion
(♥) had a relationship with someone you'll never forget
(♥) done something you've regretted
() lost faith in love
() kissed under a mistletoe
(♥) missed someone a lot

(♥) took an honors/advanced class
(♥) broke the dress code
() sent to the principles office for misbehavior
() got straight A's
(♥) met one teacher you really like
(♥) met one teacher you really hated
() failed a class
() skipped school
(♥) did something you were proud of
(♥) discovered a new talent
(♥ ) proved yourself an idiot
() embarrassed yourself in front of the class
() fell in love with a teacher
() intentionally tripped someone at school
(♥) were involved in something you'll never forget
(♥) painted a picture
(♥) wrote a poem
() ran a mile
() shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(♥) posted a blog
(♥) listened to music you couldn't stand
(♥) went to a sleepover
(♥) went camping
(♥) threw a surprise party
(♥) laughed till you cried
() laughed till you peed in your pants
() visited a foreign country
(♥) cut in a line of waiting people
(♥) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(♥) lol-ed, lmao-ed, rotfl-ed, etc when you really weren't
(♥) celebrated the new year
(♥) cooked a disastrous meal
(♥) lost someone important to you
In 2009 I...
(♥) broke a promise
(♥) lied
(♥) went behind your parents back
(♥) cried over a broken heart
(♥) disappointed someone close
(♥) hid a secret
(♥) pretended to be happy
() slept under the stars
() kept your new years resolution
(♥) forgot your new years resolution
(♥) met someone who changed your life
() met one of your idols
(♥) changed your outlook on life
(♥) sat home all day doing nothing
(♥) pretended to be sick
() left the country
(♥) almost died
() given up something important to you
() lost something expensive
(♥) learned something new about yourself
(♥) tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
(♥) made a change in your life
(♥) found out who your true friends were
(♥) met great people<3
(♥) stayed up til sunrise
(♥) Cried over the silliest thing
() was never home on weekends
() got into a car accident
() had friends who were drifting away from you but got them back
(♥) had someone close to you die
(♥) had a high cell phone bill
(♥) spent most of your money on food
() had a fist fight
(♥) went to the beach with your best friend
(♥) saw a celebrity
(♥) got sick
() liked more than 5 people at the same time
(♥) became closer with a lot of people
() stayed on the phone all night with best friends looking for shooting stars
(♥) danced your heart out in the dark
(♥) had amazing dreams
(♥) sorta wished that this amazing year wouldnt end...
(♥) ........but preeettyyy darn excited for whats to come in 2010

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

It's becoming tradition for me to post up the trailer for the latest Twilight film as soon as it comes out. Hopefully this one is received better than the first two. Please let it be better than the first two.

700th Post

Thursday, 11 March 2010


Readdicted thanks to Georgie. RIght now I'm also getting resick. I can't sleep, got PE tmrw.

My writing style is jibber jabbered up. I got that yucky sick taste in my mouth and my family is annoying the hell out of me.

I miss you. It sorta hurt when you got mad at me for not sleeping, well not mad (I think) but like annoyed. Give me a break once in a while please. Ilyafam.

Tuesday, 9 March 2010

I am in love with

  • The Year 7 girl who played the harp at open day
  • My sister's friend who lent us SAILOR MOON BOX SETS!
  • You.

Monday, 8 March 2010

Sunday, 7 March 2010

if i didn't, then i wouldn't be this way

Play hide and seek with me

I'll hide, you seek.
Wouldn't it be nice to just close our eyes and float aimlessly forever?

Saturday, 6 March 2010

My goodness,

...How we all have changed.


The only reason I have for hating facebook is that everyone looks so gorgeous in photos and I'm like...*cry* xD



TV Week: Do either of you have any pets?

Lea: Cory has sea monkeys.

Cory: They died. Thanks for bringing it up! Lea has rescue cats.

Lea: I love how you just call them rescue cats - like they're not normal cats. Do you remember their names?

Cory: Cupcake and Meat Pie.

Lea: No, close. Claude and Sheila.

Friday, 5 March 2010

"All it takes is faith and trust…
Oh, and something I forgot! Dust! Just a little bit of pixie dust!"
--Peter Pan

I'm absolutely obsessed and in love with the stars

Commerce sucks

I hate the teachers who actually walk around

I shower, naked.


Thursday, 4 March 2010

Only Exception - Paramore (L)

Lyrics | Paramore lyrics - The Only Exception lyrics

Youtube the videoclip! I love her black dress and the one that she's wearing when she's lying down on the cards

Tuesday, 2 March 2010

Tumblr Quote 6

14928.) Every night I picture you falling asleep next to me with your arm around me. I want it more than anything.

The deeper I get in, the more I forget how dangerous it can be.

Smexy Tumblr

go on. Hit that^ ;)


You made my day.

Had a dream

That you did something, with her, and then just laughed at me. Sorry.

Embracing the Call - The Glorious Unseen

The title fits so many situations right now.

Come join and become part of the


Me = Cool bananananana
Liyisa = Cool coconut
Luke = Cool mango
Selina = Cool blueberry
Sharon = Cool watermelon
Wendy = Cool rockmelon
Laura = Cool Honeydew
Aislinn = Cool Starfruit
Vanessa = Cool Pineapple
Amy = Cool kiwi
Georgia = Cool peach
Joy = Cool tomato
Gino = Cool strawmaberry


My cool strawberry said hello to me through tumblr. Even though she's gay, I still love her =D

200 Pounds Beauty

Been streaming since I'm stuck at home again, sick. I really wanted to go to school but family wouldn't let me. I'll see if I can stop by after to pick up some books and maybe see Luke.

200 Pounds Beauty. Korean movie. This is like...the 5th time I've watched it. Youtube it!

I miss you

P.S. If I wasn't so sick, I'd give everyone a big kiss and hug. You know how people say life is a rollercoaster because there are a lot of ups and downs? I know a lot of people have had a scary fall to their downs at the moment. So lots of love to you all.

Monday, 1 March 2010

It's just all piling up


J.Mendel : Tulle Spring Fashion Dress
Forever new: Silk printed dress - $99.99
                     Zip trim heels - $79.99
                     Swirl elastic belt - $29.99
                     Pyramid bracelet - $29.99
                     Chain drop earrings - $24.99

Chesty Coughs

Heart burn. Throat burn. School made me sicker.